First of all, to everyone out there and all around the world, 
To my families, relatives and friends, 
Have a blessed, warm, and loving Christmas in this holiday season, take care and,
Have a lovely 2014 ahead.

This year is the first time, I'm able to celebrate Winter Solstice, Christmas,
New Year, Chinese New Year with my family and friends. 
Maybe it's a good sign, and hopefully 2014 will be good to me.
Since I went to overseas for studies,
I've been celebrating all the exciting events with my friend. 
It's a different experience for me, yet it's heart warming and unforgettable too.
Celebrating all these exciting events with family will be memorable to me.

Every year, during this holiday season, I try to have like flash backs of my childhood,
How I celebrated Christmas, and I try to blog it every year's Christmas.
Well, Christmas is a season to give, where everyone has a present for themselves, or, 
a present for someone. For me, Christmas is not about Santa, is about giving love to everyone you love.
I still remember receiving presents from relatives, families, friends and of course, Santa Claus.
Looking at all those wrapped presents, thinking what will it be underneath all those wrappings.
Maybe its what I want? Well, here's one of the stories to share.

My uncle is the one who always, without fail, every year, organised like a family reunion on Christmas Eve,
where he takes maybe a month to prepare and organise, from the menu, to the guest, 
very dedicated and thoughtful. Of course, mouth watering menu as always.
Turkey, warm hearty soup, finger food, a small cheese corner, dessert like pudding with warm custard.
Oh...and also the Christmas tree he puts up, and decorated with colourful ornaments, bells, 
and the shiny star at the top of the tree, and under the Christmas tree, full of presents for all us.
Christmas songs played all night, everyone jokes around, telling their own childhood stories.
It's nice to have relatives gathering around, although there's no fireplace, definitely not snowing outside.
However, everyone enjoys it. Laughters fill the room, and when the clock strikes midnight,
Everyone toast for a better year ahead, and just like that, the year ends with laughters and happiness.

As I grow older, of course, it's not compulsory to have Christmas present,
However, I'm still happy, and as I grow older, I start to help my uncle in the kitchen,
and the desserts too. Up till today, although this year's Christmas will be a little different from before,
but this little flashback still remains in my mind. Doesn't matter how many years have past,
Christmas is still Christmas, where kids are happy, because Santa Claus is coming to town with presents, 
Everyone busy preparing dinners and reunion party, and welcoming a brand new year.
I hope, one day, I can celebrate somewhere with snows and sleigh rides. As everyone says, it's very different celebrating a white Christmas...

Once again, blessed Christmas everyone...

一年一度的冬至节，

在还没结束以前，祝全天下冬至节快乐，又长大一岁了。

今年的冬至，真的是我出国留学以来，第一个和家人过的冬至。

虽然对很多人说，这只不过是一餐很普通的晚餐。

对我而言，今年的汤圆，是我奶奶亲手爱心准备，真的甜在心中。

家中的两位老人家，因为她知道，今天他的孙子全部都回到他们身边，

又会是一个很热闹的冬至。难得今年一家人吃饭，

我看到他们脸上的笑容，是打从心里，笑得合不拢嘴。

也许很多人认为，幸福是拥有很多钱，又或是生活无忧。

幸福是什么？见仁见智吧，并没有一定的解释。

新娘出嫁，脸上的微笑，嫁得如意郎君，就是幸福。

家里增添孙子，亲朋好友送上祝福，就是幸福。

一位乞丐手上的一碗温热饭菜，嘴里慢慢细嚼，就是幸福。

那我对幸福的定义又时什么？

幸福对我而言，

就是尽量在节日里陪他们，特别是家里的3位老人家。

做自己喜欢的事，没有后悔，对得起自己。

幸福本来就是这么简单。

Everyone has their own story book of life, 
There's bitter and sweet, spicy and sour.
The sweetness of success, love and happiness.
Let's not forget about the bitterness of failure, tears of sadness and sorrows.
Sometimes things wont't go the way we want,
It gets spicy and awakens the senses in our nerves, and things start to get out of control.
So, is either we fight or flight.
However, just when you thought your plan is going smoothly, it starts to crumble and fall apart,
its like looking at an orange, just when you thought its sweet, but actually is sour.
So, we never know what will happen the next moment.

I love reading story books and of course, movies and dramas. 
Like Harry Potter, well, magic, witch and wizards, and the flying broom,
or watching Captain America, the actions and the handsomeness... 
Who doesn't like to read? Or even watch a movie like The Avengers? or maybe Transformers?
There are endless when it comes to fiction books and movies.
However, all those are part of our story book. 
It sweetens the bitter and sourness in our pages of story book.
Life doesn't have to be the complete opposite of each other, its either too sweet or too bitter.
Its like a box of chocolate, there's dark and milk chocs,where bitter and sweet comes in one.
When is the last time you actually taste happiness in a piece of chocolate?
Or maybe spend some time with the one you love, or even laugh out loud?
It's up to us how we write our pages. As long as we got no regrets.

有很多人每次都会埋怨为什么身边的人，
缺点多，脾气不好，小气，不会体谅别人，
总之，嫌他人缺点比优点多。

曾经真的很沉思的，因为有一位长辈问了我一句话，
在一张白纸上，中间有一粒很小的黑点，
他问我，我先看见什么，
当时，我真的很认真的，还很理所当然的，
告诉他，当然那粒黑点啦。
他，并没说什么，就笑笑的，点点头。
听起来，是不是很禅？我还一头雾水，是不是我回答错了？

人渐渐长大，我才慢慢领悟，为什么那位长辈会笑笑，点点头。
人性，本来就是肤浅。不是说我不肤浅，因为我也是人。
可是，黑点与白纸，我现在还是很努力的，不是在看那黑点，而是白纸和黑点。
为什么要努力看那白纸和黑点？其实，问任何人，谁不会先看到那粒黑点？
黑点在白纸上，黑点更显得抢眼，更会引起你的注意力。反而白纸一张，还不如那粒黑点。

白纸就好比人的优点，良性。黑点就好比人的缺点，恶性。
当然不是要你忽视那粒黑点，因为黑点本来就是白纸的一部分。
就好像我们，我们并不完美，我们身上总会有那粒“黑点”。
人总是把注意力，放在黑点上，并没有注意整体上。
但是，接受并不是代表盲目的包容他人的缺点。

人的缺点，自私，奉承，骄傲，推卸责任，歧视等等，
想到的，意想不到的缺点，每天司空见惯。
10个人里，当然会有很不一样的缺点，有时候真的考验我们。
让我领悟的一点是，我还是在我的忍耐力范围内，
尽量忍耐，与此同时，我也用同样的观察里和理解，
去发现你的优点，因为每个人都有善恶两面。
每个人的成长经历不同，就好像故事书，各式各样，各有精彩。
人长大了，就会在社交圈上打滚，人与人之间的相处，
要和谐与和睦，真的比太阳从西边升起还要难。

人人说，要和平共处。所谓的和平共处，不是说，世界没有战争，就是和平。
和平其实是在大家各自的领域里找到互相包容的那个平衡点。
可是，要真正做到，就要看你对“和平共处”如何定义。
我还在很努力的学习，学会在看黑点的同时，也看看白纸。
与其把全部的注意力放在那小黑点，不如看看那大大张的白纸，
也许，你会看见，其实你身边所谓缺点多多的朋友，也会有善良的一面。
因为有黑点的存在，人生才叫完整。
如果只有白纸独存，那人生还会精彩吗？

时间真的很快， 又来到了12月。
很快的，新年要来了，2014也充满着很多神秘与很多的未知数。
圣诞节快接近，到处都会有圣诞歌，非常应节。
圣诞歌结束后，不久华人新年的新年歌又会响起。

每个节日都会有不同的音乐与节奏的相伴。
我小时候就很喜欢听歌。因为我是很文静，平常没什么话讲。
我妈妈每次说，我在家与否，都没什么分别，因为一样的安静。
大部分时间，我都是耳机塞耳朵，什么都听不见。
可能我比较喜欢自己一个人的空间，听歌就是全部。
不知怎么解释，就是很喜欢听歌。歌曲里的世界，真的很自由。
我非常了解在幕后作曲和作词音乐人的那份热情。

喜怒哀乐，悲伤，兴奋，睡觉，我都需要音乐。我真的很感恩，五官端正。
在音乐的世界里，没有所谓的“标准”，没有所谓的“空间”，没有所谓的“语言”，
没有所谓的“宗族”，没有所谓的“颜色”，没有所谓的“眼光”，
爱听就听，不爱听，随时关机。

一首歌的时间，可以改变个人的心情。
不是每个人都可以把时间给一首歌，
要不就是忙着工作，要不是就把时间花在别人的身上。
曾几何时，有谁记得真正的把一首歌的时间，
留给自己，好好的了解自己，好好的和自己说话？

现在的世界，音乐越来越多元化，越来越多不同的曲风。
总有一首歌是适合自己，总有一首歌，能够让你想起很多往事，勾起很多回忆。
我每次会被朋友笑，笑我有时还真的很老土，
听老歌，听一些不是现代的歌。
对我来说，只要是好听的歌，哪怕是真的很旧，只要能够适合我那时后的心情。
华语，英语，韩语，日语，广东语的歌，
还有只有配乐的，传统和现代乐器，我都在听，都很欣赏。
哪怕有时不明白，因为你只需要有心与用心听。
这就是音乐里世界。

给自己一首歌时间，你会发觉，
其实，在那时间里，你会很了解自己，
环境多恶劣，事情多难，心情多糟糕，
都会很快过去。

多少人会因为那无谓的自尊，让家人伤透心？
多少人会因为自己所谓的‘不想让家人担心’‘我自己会搞定’，
而让家人很无奈的默默在黑暗里送上真诚的祝福？
而又有多少人会因为冷漠的家庭背景，更渴望有家人给的一丝温暖？
有多少人因为家人的漠不关心，冷眼旁观，无视，会更加渴望得到家人的认同？

我们就是这样，
当一切尽在眼中，就是有一股无名的力量，
和我们搏斗说，这一切都是必然的，
我有我的想法，他们有他们的关心。
还有很长的时间，以后还可以关心。
当有什么事的时候，好像遇到挫折，做事失败，健康出了问题
就好想有人关心，后悔，忏悔，
但是关心你的人就会慢慢离你而去。

为什么能够和你现在的家人成为家人？
因为因缘，对，是一句我常讲的金句，是，非常老土，
就是因为我的家人，才会有今天的我。
饮水思源，是我师公每次讲座说的。
你以为可以不靠家人，把他们对你的关心当成毒药，
把他们的重视换来你的冷眼，家人给的温暖当成冬天里的雪花，
你以为就这样他们会放弃？
其实，也许朋友就此放弃，但是家人的美就在这，
他们还是会关心你，只不过在黑暗的某一处。
别忘了常常望望那黑暗里，也许温暖就是那么容易。

最近，我的知己生了她生命里最宝贵的一胎。
恭喜！恭喜！愿你赶快康复，赶快再来一胎，哈哈！！

一个的生命的开始，莫过于天下父母都有一种说不出的感动，疼爱与珍惜。
一个怀胎10个月的婴儿，和妈妈有着同一个体温，食同一样东西，
睡觉，上班，做家务，喜怒哀乐都在一起。

10个月后的某一天，10个月后，和自己分享一切的婴儿出世了。
从此，体温就不再相同，喜怒哀乐，各有不同。
然而，身为父母，对孩子的细心，无论孩子9个月，还是99岁，
还是一如既往，心甘情愿，无怨无悔。

在佛教经典里，有一本“父母恩重难报经”，
行里间的字字句句，都让我难忘。
就好像一本故事书，讲述为人父母，付出的，能有多深，就有多深！
不是说我是什么孝女，但至少我做的一切，让父母安心。
从前有一位前辈对我说，
与其说孩子是向父母讨债的，父母是还债的，
不如说父母给了孩子一个机会来到世间，与你有缘

总是有很多人很害怕黑暗，黑夜，

不管是周围的黑暗，还是心理上遇到的黑夜，

那种伸手不见五指，没有了方向，惊慌，无助，头皮发麻的感觉，

一双眼睛，看也看不清，努力地睁开，看见的，还是漆黑一片，

心里会有一把声音在挣扎，告诉自己要勇敢，要有勇气的克服。

小时候，家人就说，我是最勇敢，年纪还小，

不必开灯，就可以独自一人，回房间睡觉，去厨房倒水。

其实，有哪个小孩不怕黑？我也不例外。

只是，心想，只要习惯了，以后就会不怕。

因为在黑暗里，没有安全感，周围没有什么是可以依靠，除了自己。

因为人习惯了光明带来的安全感，理所当然地觉得，一切都有把握。

因为人害怕黑暗带来的恐惧感，所以缺乏安全感。

其实，夜有夜的美，

因为夜里，虽然伸手不见五指，看不清前方

可是有星星，月亮，

不管再漆黑，月亮的光，星星的闪烁都衬托夜里的美。

就好比心理的黑暗，

人遇上困难，就缺乏安全感，因此而软弱。

心中的彷徨，无助，就会盖过理性。

须知道，人需要勇气，坚强的敖立在风雪中。

就好象月亮和星星，在黑暗里，让人觉得有一丝的光，熬过漫长的黑夜，

别忘了风雪过后，春风还是会吹暖大地。

漫长的夜晚，也会看到晨曦。

熟悉陌生的黑夜，才会觉得有归属感白天，

挺过了风雪，才会有梅花般坚强。

每逢佳节倍思亲，一年一度中秋近。
世界各地的游子，有没有回家过中秋呢？
世界各地的华人，都在忙着制作月饼，
各式各样，各种口味，不同文化与家庭传统，层出不穷，
都会为每年的中秋节增添很多的不同风味。

吃月饼，赏月色，点灯笼。
我儿时的记忆，想起都很窝心。
我应该是很传统的人，喜欢庆祝传统节日，
中秋，新年，冬至等等。。
在外国过中秋，别有一般风味，
听着老外问我，月饼是什么，中秋节又有什么意思？
我很乐意解释，也很乐意分享月饼的滋味。

和朋友庆祝，与家人团圆，
只要大家开心，珍惜。
下星期五，就是中秋节。
也提早祝大家，人月两团圆，喜庆中秋。

颜色，能代表一个人的心情。
颜色，能让一个人抒发自己。
对我而言，颜色让我想起很多人和事。
白色和青色，是人间慈悲基金会的义跑t-shirt,
白色和粉红色，是我在出国前，有几个好朋友，
送我的一间外套。
灰色，是一位朋友送我的生日小熊。
褐色和紫色，是我爷爷送我的毕业熊娃娃。
红色和青色，是奶奶送我的毕业花篮。
黑色和红色，是爸爸买我的手提电脑的颜色。
花花色，红橙黄绿蓝靛紫，是小时候，妈妈从很远的地方，买了一本日记簿给我。
黑色，是我用了很多年的巨杯，和那知己一起买。
黑色，也是师公的墨汁，写了无数的墨宝，启发了很多人，认真思考。
红白蓝黄，是小时候，和邻居玩耍的游乐场。


我很感恩，我没有色盲。
因为，颜色让周围的东西变得不再灰暗。
因为有颜色，才看得见彩虹，才造就了很多美丽的童话。
今天的你，有没有一种颜色，让你想起以往的故事？

Its been awhile updating my blog. 

Well peeps, how's life going on?

Although Mother's day had over,

but thought of blogging something about my dearest mum. 

My mum is a housewife now. 

But I always admire the way she presented herself.
Confidence, in control and patience.

I remember when I was kid, 

She always bring me to her office.

Now, at that time, her office was my playground, because she works in a toy company.

Lots of toys and barbie dolls, plush, doll house, hot wheels, gundam, everything a kid likes. 

Later on, she works in a stationary company.

Colour markers, crayon, play dough, cool and unique pencils and pens, and many other stationeries...

Now, what I see is, people are coming into her office and telling her stories, well at that time,
Makes me wonder why all these people coming in and out, phones ringing and hanging...

And by the way, she looks scary and serious. I'm lucky I was never once her staff. (*peace hand sign*)

She always tell me, study hard and one day you will be like me, and one day, you will have your own office.

When she was at home, and when I fall sick,

She turns into a different person.

She's not the person I saw her in her office.

She is my mother. She looks after me.

Nagging at home. Help me with my homework.

Shopping with her at the wet market. 

I always want to learn from her, 

Her confidence, her ability juggling between work and home.

Her patience, she never bring home work stress,

Her attitude, the way she handle people,

Her social skills, never once I saw her point her fingers at a person and scream at them.

Well, now, she is housewife, 

because she decided to look after us and spend more time at home. 

So grateful that she spent her time and effort. Well, should say she like a chameleon,

You will always know she's there. 

Well, to me, everyday is mother's day to me. 

人生无常，无常人生。

小时候，每个小孩都是开心，无邪，无忧无虑。

纵然父母有什么忧愁，

也不会要他们的孩子忧愁，

只要他们看到孩子开心，他们就会满足。

有时候，我真的在想，

没父母的孩子，

是多么恐慌，因为我深深体会。

小时候，父母是保暖壶。

孩子会觉得父母的呵护，是必然。

当孩子长大时，父母是闹钟。

孩子觉得父母总是碎碎念，提醒与提点，是当然。

当孩子到了中年，父母是空气。

孩子开始懂得与体谅父母，也时时刻刻的惦记父母，这是当然。

当孩子慢慢的开始老了，父母是宝石。

开始觉得，父母的爱很珍贵，很舍不得父母，孝顺父母是必然。

父母的奉献是无私，今天的你，

有没有对你的父母嘘寒问暖？

Been busy since new year...
Well, lesson in life number 1,
nothing will last forever, and nothing will be the same once they are gone forever.
I know a lot of people know, appreciate what you have,
but, there are still a lot of people don't know.

Recently lost one of my auntie.
This auntie is one of the close auntie who see me grow up,
and always not afraid of my mum, always buy treats for me.
I did went back and visit her,
and I do know that she will be gone one day, because of her medical condition,
However, I wasn't shock, nor surprise, that she is gone now, forever.
And to those people out there thinks your parents is going to stay with you forever and hold your hands,
maybe you need to invent some kind of potion to preserve them.

Many people say, nurses are numb when it comes to death.
Well for me, I have families, and friends, plus looking at the industry I'm working,
its not easy for me to see someone pass away.
Although death in nursing home is a normal thing, for me,
it's hard for me to see my relatives, or elderlies in nursing pass...
Nurses are actually the worst ones when it comes to death.

Lesson in life number 2,
if you can't change the situation you are in now,
change your perception, your thoughts and also change your attitude.
and the most important thing is, never afraid to accept new changes.
There's too many storms and waves in life.
Sometimes might be smooth sailing, and luck is always beside you,
but they are not there always, nor forever.
I have gone through storms, and I can tell you,
it's never easy to sail in storms as you will get hurt and cut,
and it's a test to see if you survived, or sink deep.

I think I just survived one of the storm,
and there's another one coming.
Well let's hope I don't sink deep and survived this one.

今年是我在海外过的第五个新年。
缺少年味，年菜，红包，人情，
对我而言，哪像新年？
唯有自己播新年歌，不知不觉也跟着唱起来。
每年的新年，都在工作里度过。
也没什么特别。

新年期间，惜福和团圆格外贴切。
珍惜在家乡过的每一个新年，
珍惜每到年菜的味道，
珍惜到每家亲戚家拜年，
珍惜在吵吵闹闹的家里过新年。
能与家人团圆的机会，得来不易。

在海外过新年的每一位学子，游子们，
祝你们蛇年吉祥，心想事成，
吉祥如意。

3 little sausages which I will always make me laugh...

Misty, you are now in a better place, and you sent me your sister. 

Cuddles, whenever I look at you, it always reminds me of Misty,

which I know both of you can't be replace by each other.

Autumn, thank you for being with me for several years.

Autumn is still autumn... However, her friend  is not the same.
Top: Cuddles    Bottom: Misty, always miss...

At this time of the day, middle of the night,
Feeling hungry...
Though it gives me a thought, maybe I should upload some photos..
Photos of something I like doing apart from being a nurse, which is cooking...
Well, basically it is just something I enjoy, and still learning on the way..

Trial of Chocolate coated cherry  trifle, and  it was not  bad  ^^

Chocolate cherry cupcake, which one of my friend always ask me  for more...

Gateau Napolean, looks a bit rustic, but  there's always one of my friends favourite.

Chocolate Orange Meringue Cake, for one of the  gathering ...

Another year has passed.
Dragon year almost finished and The year of Snake is just around the corner.
And, always this time of the year, I will get super homesick as I miss the younger days,
That I celebrate Chinese New Year (CNY) with my family, go house to house visiting,
And of course collecting red packets, as a best wishes from our family, relatives and friends.

Well, having to celebrate Chinese New Year by my own,
I learnt how to make Chinese New Year dishes and little snacks and treats.
There's something called BBQ pork or as Chinese people say "long yuk"..
Well, I tried asking and seeking opinion from lots of people,
So I finally tried it today, and of course, nothing taste better like what I had for the pass 20 years.
Sometimes, makes me wonder, something can never be replace and something will always stay as our memory and it will be cherished as long as we live.
Playing Chinese New Year songs in my computer makes me thinking of the atmosphere in my country.

Well, what we always do, the day before CNY, have a family reunion dinner, and go for late night market to get all the things for CNY. And after that, the most exciting part, is to go over my grandparents house to stay for 5 days of CNY, and all my cousins will be there, and that is why CNY is one of my most looking forward festive.

All this thing makes me realize, if something broken, you can easily fix or buy a new one to replace.
But things like memory and the taste that you once had during childhood, will never be able to replace.
I like Chinese dumplings a lot. I remember one of my auntie is very good in making those,
And I will never forget how it taste. Although now I might not be able to taste it anymore,
I will always remember.

Well, looking forward to the Year of Snake..
Hopefully its a good year for me and to others too ^^