Hey peeps,
Last hour of 2012.
How's your day been?
I had a tough year.
Gone through tunnels, up in the air and also down to the sea,
which I'm glad and proud of myself that I survived.
Achieve lots and fail to achieve.
Well, guess what people, 2013 is here, which is time for me to continue to achieve what's left.

New year wish,
Which is simple,
Be a better nurse, improve myself,
possible to study more,
stay happy, stay strong while going through tough times.

2013,
New year, new life,new page,
wonder what will I write on the new page?
Have a good new year ahead everyone ^^

Well people,
It has been awhile I last updated my blog.
As everyone in the world was saying,
The world is going to end and non of the human being will survive.
Here we are,
still survive, still have to work, still have bills to pay and life still goes on.
So, be happy, because at this time of the year, its time for sharing and caring to others.

I grow up in a Buddhist and Christian family.
I celebrate Christmas as a festive season.
Like any other household, I still have my Christmas tree,
wrapped presents are under the Christmas tree,
Thank you my dearest uncle for the lovely childhood memory which I much cherished till now.

Other than Christmas just days to go,
I also did something today, which I haven experience before.
Well, went out with one of my client,
and I do appreciate the other nurse who come along.

Happiness is just something simple and easy to achieve.
My client look so satisfied after fried chicken strips and a beer,
which not often seen in many rich people.

Happiness is,
not having toothache today,
not feeling sick,
its just having sweets.
Many billionaire always says" money can buy happiness".
And in the real world is, money can buy everything in the world,
BUT happiness. Maybe a there's heaps of people out there will disagree with me.
My happiness is just simply a little space for me to read my books, with my music, accompany by cup of tea.
I know it sounds very old fashion,but this is what happiness is.
Keep things simple and you will find happiness.

By the way, have a blessed and Merry Christmas to everyone out there.
Stay safe ^^

谣言止于智者，人言可畏，

欲加之罪，何患无辞？

这几句谚语，每天都会在电视剧里听见。

当你听见别人再讲的时候，

你会说别人老土。

可是，如果这几句话在现实生活中上演，

你又会如何处理得妥当呢？

是否继续把谣言传，还是尝试当个智者？

谣言本来就不会遇见智者，

人的嘴巴本来很美，笑起来，就会带给别人温暖。

可是，嘴巴说出来的话，是否还能带给别人温暖呢？

当以上的三句加起来，就算你坦荡荡的，

比清水还要清，也会被越描越黑，百辞莫辩。

如果嘴巴不能选择词语来表达，

不能说好话，那沉默就是金。

所有智者的你们，

是否有问问自己，如何分辨谣言是否真与假？是否是褒义或贬义的批评？

是否让自己的耳朵选择什么应该听？什么不应该听？

是不是从别人身上听回来就是真？还是以自己的眼睛为标准？

是不是能够分辨与接受别人所谓的批评？

不是每个人可以接受批评。不是每个人肯听实话。

因为接受批评需要勇气，从批评中学习需要智慧。

There was once,

one of my colleague told me,

" If you can't say something good, don't say it at all. "

Well, it is so true. Why say something where you know you will hurt someone's feeling,

where you know you will have to pay the consequences later?

And when everyone is discussing what you have just said hurt people's feeling,

and here comes rumours.

And this will change how others see you.

You might be a very good person, good and caring nurse,

good attitude, however, when rumours hits you,

what can you do about it?

And it spread like lighting, quicker than you thought. 

And you start to explain yourself to the world, 

where no one remembers, you were once,

have a good attitude,

you are a good person,

how good were you caring for others.

Doesn't matter how many good things you done in the past.
" Accept Criticism takes courage, need wisdom to learn from criticism. "

So, lesson learnt,

When you can't say something good, and if you know it will hurt other people's feeling,

just choose what your words. Remember, sometimes, 

silent is golden.

Understanding is something that takes time,
However, it is also the hardest thing to achieve too...

When someone understands you,
You don't have to say anything,
You don't have to explain how you feel.
They just need to sit beside you,
offer their shoulder, and give you a warm smile.

When you understands someone,
You just need to look them in their eyes,
You just need to pat their shoulders,
and let them cry in your arms.
It's just simply understanding.

How many people around us,
understands you,
When you are happy, sad, or angry?
And the most important thing is,
Do you understand yourself?

《风有情，雨有意》
这是我师公讲座的题目。
师公简单的说了，
“世界上，没有什么是能够独自生存。
就好比医生需要病人。”
说到这里，看似很简单，
却需时间深深体会。
这一句，

听到师公说到这里，
我的眼泪不禁，不停地往心里流。
突然让我想起，在我工作的地方，
有一位老人家。
背景是，无意间发现自己有了癌症。
从此，只要是吞什么东西，
都回咳嗽，像食物去错管道。
我每天陪她一起吃药。
坐在那里15分钟，我的泪就留了15分钟。
她，当兵30年。军人生活就是她的一切。
现在，需依赖年轻一辈，
来照顾她。
她自己几乎都在放弃自己。

我很努力的在用不同的方式，
扰乱她，意图对话能够让她，不知不觉地把药吞完。
但不是每次都行得通。
每次问我，吃了药也不会好，为什么要吃？
护士，不是万能，我能力能做到的，
我使劲地做了。

我最近常常对自己说，
要不是过去的十年，
受过法炬训练，有一颗，
给人希望，给人方便，
一切随缘，乐观满足，
体会别人的感受的心，
我也做不了我现在在做的工作。

今天是我的老朋友的生日。
十几年，依然风雨不改的，
互相支持。虽然我远在海外。
五年没一起过生日，
但，彼此还是会把对方的生日，
记挂在心里。

笑的时候，也不忘分享。
哭的时候，也不怕让她知道。
十几年的风雨，没把我们的痕迹磨掉。

再过几年，她身边多了一个他，
我也很替她高兴，幸福。
因为我知道，她从此就有他的陪伴，
不再孤单。

在这里，送上挚热的祝福，
在未来的日子里，
要幸福的，满足的，
当然最重要的，
开心的过每一天。

*Little hint for you: This will no longer appear in picture... It will appear in real life with a better  version. Hope you will like it when the time comes ^^ have a blessed birthday..

每个人都想做个有钱人，

每个人都想赚大钱。

新年的愿望，都想要财源滚滚来。

想，如果有一天，

要是很多钱，不用做工，

在家做少奶奶，少爷。

可是，也没人想想，

连英女王，

朋友，我是在说英女王，

80岁，还依然大权在握，为人民服务。

威廉王子，还依然在军营训练，

试问我们平凡人，

哪有理由一夜之间，变了有钱人，

就什么都不用做呢？
乞丐再穷，也要工作，
忙着乞食，也是工作之一。
上至英女王，下至乞丐，
谁没有工作呢？

幻想，梦想，联想，

虽然都有一个想字，

但，你有多少个想呢？

幻想，是需要我们的想象力，

梦想，要有动力与坚持，配合点点的幻想。

当梦想与幻想加起来，中间便是联想。

3想，你又储蓄了多少个呢？

一切从幻想开始。
幻想就好像种子。
开花与否，全靠施的肥。
所以，现在有幻想的朋友，
要努力的往好的方面想，
别忘了，要用心想，
因为，想字里，有个心。

每个人都想听我师公，慧海法师讲佛法。
可是，有多少个听了，能够活学活用？
有多少个听了，能够字字句句的用心体验？

师公每次说，要把习气改掉。
不好的习气，要很用心和努力地改。
看着有很多的老人把年轻时的习气，
带到老年，也就是说，现在的他们，
就是他们年轻的时候。

我每天都在照镜子。
他们就是我的镜子。
老年的我，是不是和他们一样，
年轻的习气，带到老年？

没有多年的"训练"，
护士这份工，
我也没有这个勇气和毅力，
坚持与忍耐，
给予我所照顾的人，
希望与方便。

忍耐与耐性，分别在
忍耐是忍着与耐着，
耐性是没有忍着，只是暂时的耐着。

过去的几个星期，
我深深体会，
忍耐是怎么一回事。
人，有忍耐总比有耐性好。
因为耐性，是有限时的，
很快就会七窍生烟。
忍耐，是可以磨练的，
不会轻易的，随时随地，
怒发冲冠。

我很勇敢的说，
我的忍耐力，
不是常人所有的。
从小，我的忍耐力，
是在一个地方，
哪里的人，忠言逆耳，自以为是，
我执，我满，每每都要出头，
还要指鹿为马。
曾经何时，我也差一点被圈进，
还好有当天的一课，今天的我，
总算见惯莫怪。

每次看着别人破口大骂，
吵得脸红绿耳的，沉不住气的，
真地还想笑他们，
因为在他们的身上，有的是耐性，
不是忍耐。不是他们没有忍耐，
而是不够火候。
就像熬一锅药材汤，不够火候，
哪来的药材味？就只有略略带过的汤味。

凡是沉得住气，就像含苞待放的花，
只要忍耐，总会有开花的一天。

It's daylight saving AGAIN...

These few weeks is totally madness for me..

Paperworks are everywhere...

They are in my dreams, in my eyes...

All of these work,

makes me realise this word,

and it all comes down to 'PATIENCE'

Now, everyone knows what patient is,

everyone understand how to be patient,

However, how many of us really 'taste' this word?

Especially all the bosses out there,

did you ever come across this word?

and I mean EVER come across this word?

I do have a very high tolerance of PATIENCE with anyone,

anybody, everyone, everybody...

I believe patience is what a person need in order to success..

Without patience, anger flies everywhere,

Without patience, there will be no love in this world..

Without patience, sounds like every human is like an animal...

Now, I have my patience tolerance trained since the day I'm in places,

where everyone wants to be a leader, wants to be the mentor,wants to be the strongest,

don't take any comment as advice, do not take people's feeling into consideration,

and when they do take comments as advice, they see it as personal threat, personal attack...

Now, and believe me, this place still exist, and these ignorant people still stays the same...

As Chinese people say, if I were to teach a cow to climb a tree,

I think this cow will have a better chance to succeed rather than these people...

So, people out there must be wondering, 

what if my patience is all FINISH,

what happens?

Well, the last time I FINISH up all my PATIENCE,

is back 2007...

So far, I'm just being frustrated, however, Patience is still with me...

I'm trying my best not to finish up my Patience...

今天是中秋节，
祝各位有一个难忘的中秋节。
Happy Mid Autumn Festival...

前年托我外婆的福，才有机会在家过团圆的中秋节，
今年，我的中秋节又是一个人。
小时候，常常吵着爷爷，
要买好多灯笼，
因为看着不同形状的灯笼，
才算是过着中秋节。

童年的中秋节，
和现在的中秋节，
分别就在，
以前月饼要与人分享，
现在想分享也没人理我。

小时候，看着月亮
很仔细地用眼睛，
看看月亮里真的是否有嫦娥，
现在很仔细地看着月亮，
想家人与朋友，近来过得怎样。

外国的月亮，也没比家的圆，
因为无论看着月亮的是何人，
都是在想念家人，
想念以往美好的回忆。

但愿人长久，
千里共婵娟。

Had a well and deserved day off today...

I just stay home and have all the time in the world to write my blog,

and most importantly, resting me heart, body and soul.

In addition, I also have time to read...

For the next 2 weeks,

All shifts will be night shift...

Which kind of good and bad, 

Good, because I have the time for myself, 

not as busy during the day shift,

and have peace and quiet shift.

Bad, of course is bad, 

my biological time will change and I sleep throughout the day,

wasting the time enjoying the beautiful Spring outside...

Well, from the first day I study Nursing,

I sign up for all of this, and I'm not and can't complain...

As a result, and reward for me,

I savour my day off and appreciate the time I spent at home.

Mostly baking, and reading, and watching movie...

Not too long to go, Christmas is coming, 

and it is the best time for shopping...

And that's my ultimate goal end of the year..

I truly understand, that money doesn't come in a bling of an eye...

It comes from numerous nights..

So for every day off I have, 

I will have to plan how to spent my day...
So when my blog is updated, that means,
It's my day off ^^

在这里的4年几，

原来也成就了我的‘厨师’梦。。

原来要是以后不想做护士了，

当个业余的甜点厨师也不错。

常常在烘蛋糕时，

我喜欢的不只是成果，

也非常喜欢过程，

把所有的材料搅拌，

细心的衡量着。。

谁不喜欢甜点？

谁不喜欢蛋糕带给人的满足与喜悦？

开心时，蛋糕是点缀，

不开心时，蛋糕是心灵的甜点。

朋友每次告诉我，

我不应该当护士，

我应该当厨师。

因为我煮的东西，

我的每个朋友说我，

煮的东西，很用心，很细心，也很精致。

其实我喜欢当护士，

因为它令我体会到不同的东西，

让我清楚地看到人，

其实就是很脆弱的东西。

在床榻上的每一个人，

因为种种的原因，

每个都有自己要活下去的理由。

护士，除了能在身理上给予帮助，

很多时候，心理上的支持，

我们不知不觉中，也在默默的支持。

以后，也许会有那么的一天，

我要当，即是护士，又是厨师，

能在我的蛋糕里，

体会我默默带给每一人，

那份支持，喜悦，和满足感。。

过去的五年，我终于是一位注册护士了。
继两年前的博客，接下来，
精彩的人生，精彩的体验，
应该不会少。

先说说，在我大学第二年时，
很清楚地记得，
在深切治疗部实习2个多月。

我每次都在想，
电视剧里的深切治疗部，
病人都很夸张的演出。
当我踏进那部门的那一刻，
原来‘夸张’这形容词，
应该换成认真。

为什么是认真？
因为每一个病人都在认真地在康复中，
认真的同时，也少不了那份斗志。
在那两个月的时间里，
见到的，听到的，想到的，
都是能让我这辈子体会到，
原来呼吸真的只在‘呼’和‘吸’。

我每天都在问，护士是不是万能？
是不是每一条生命都能及时地抢救？
是不是在每条生命结束之前，
我们能做的是不是也做足了？

Hey people> I'm back after an interesting 5 years of explore...How's everyone out there going?